For many people being alone is simply a frightening prospect. And for me throughout much of my life, it was simply an unacceptable way to utilize time. Time to myself, without the reassuring company and distraction of friends, was an anxiety provoking experience so, instead of feeling into the information contained in the anxiety, I’d fill my time up with as many people and activities as I could. Anything to keep me busy enough that I wouldn’t have a moment to face into any ‘now’ moment in which I might remember who I really was or why I was really here.
So I spent years avoiding time to myself.
Years avoiding who I really am.
Years afraid of who I might be.
But eventually my journeys through the mind led me to a deeper experience of what it meant to be alone. And I found that by spending time alone I could more authentically come together with others. Because by spending that time alone I came more into contact with the energy and information, and the desires and intentions, of my own Sacred Purpose in the world. It was by spending time with myself that my body mind could calibrate to the sacred field that was my soul. And here I found the real potency of intention. There was power and strength here because it aligned so deeply with my own personal blueprint with Divinity. I came out clearer, happier and more trusting that what was unfolding was exactly what I actually intended to unfold from deep within my Soul. I knew that, no matter how uncomfortable any particular situation or experience might be, that I was experiencing exactly what I came here to. And that there was a bigger pattern of intelligence at play, greater than my own little-me could fabricate on her own. Because I was conversing with the power of Divinity and the force of the Sacred.
If you’ve read Clarissa Pinkola Estes’s “Women who Run with Wolves” you’ll perhaps recall the passage when she says that “…in order to converse with the wild feminine, a woman must temporarily leave the world and inhabit a state of aloneness in the oldest sense of the word. Long ago the word alone was treated as two words, all one. To be all one, meant to be wholly one, to be in oneness, either essentially or temporarily. That is precisely the goal of solitude, to be all one. It is the cure for the frazzled state so common to modern women.” By the time I read this passage, I’d been practicing with Goddess energy for a couple of years and being alone wasn’t as frightening as it used to be. But still, within me opened a portal into an entirely new layer of realization around what it meant to be alone. It really took being ALONE to Re-Member my Oneness. And by Re-Member I mean to put back together that which I had forgotten was true about me. It wasn’t failure I was afraid of…. I had been too afraid of the greatness I might find, in being alone, to take the chance that I may indeed, in doing so, meet my Divinity. And no matter how unworthy I might have felt myself to be of this higher power of love, when I looked around at whatever might be happening at any point in time, there was never any denying it’s force in my life.
The Sacred was living it’s life as me.
And I remember wishing that someone had told me this freaking years ago!! Hence this post… for if you fall into this same category of reneging against the wishes of your Sacred Self, you are reneging against the greatest and most supportive and loving power that will ever embrace you, ever. So down the bottom I have a meditation for you to practice with that will remind you of the Divinity that lives within you. Because forgetting this fact helps no one at all, not you, not the Collective. Because we are all ONE. We just have to spend some time alone to Re-Member that.
There are many reasons we can be afraid to be alone… for some, being alone means sitting in the grief of a lost loved one. For others it leads to conclusions of being unloveable, unworthy or wrong… and it means sitting in fear that this is how life will always be. And for others, its sitting in the anxiety of that which you either haven’t yet done, and really feel you should have, or the anxiety that comes over something you have done, that you really wished you hadn’t. Staying busy, distracted and otherwise occupied, helps in avoiding the Sacred Wisdom contained within the raw and rugged Truth of your uncontainable wildness – whether male or female… there is a wild one living within you and that wild one wants you to do and be all you came here to; regardless of external pressures and expectations.
The Wild One is the Fierce Love of the Sacred and it must be heard.
This is the part of you that is never lonely, and is
simply BEING in this fabulousness of your Sacred Truth.
For me I now crave and look forward to time in solitude because it is that which plugs me back into the Power of Divinity that flows thru my precious human form. There’s no insecurity here. I just have to Re-Member that it is here. That it never comes and goes… that only I, as my little-me, comes and goes from it. And Re-Membering this Sacred Truth, that I am NEVER alone, is like being plugged back into the Shakti, the energy, that flows through the whole of creation. And even though I still wonder and fret about how that might work or what might happen if that happens, I have a stronger connection to the greatness that is also me and the infinite possibilities innate within my BEING, if only I continue to get out of my own way and simply keep showing up for the unfolding play of my life.
And I want this for you too.
Practice with this Meditation for Loneliness by right clicking and ‘saving as’ here or just press play below and settle in…..
A Meditation for Lonlieness by Kali Cathie
Till next time… take some time to yourself and Re-Member who you really are… and if you want some guidance in the process of reclaiming your Sacred Beauty, Love and Power then perhaps it’s time for a 40 Day Inner Revolution or a Six Month Metamorphosis.